I Want To Sleep

It took me completely

It took me by surprise

It was like a storm, 

on a sunny day. 

One moment I am smiling,

laughing,

talking,

…the next I am on the floor.

People staring, as I hit the floor.

Questions being hurled at me…

as if I knew,  why the hell

I was on that floor.

As if the not knowing 

wasn’t bad enough.

I lose control,

over my emotions.

I look a mess

Sound a mess

And why the hell…

does my head hurt?

Why am I so tired?

What is going on?

I just want to sleep,

but no I am being put into an ambulance.

Doctors ask questions,

I just want to sleep.

They take blood,

I just want to sleep.

Family worries,

I just want to sleep.

Is this over?

Can I sleep yet?

I am so tired.

I just want to sleep.

Maybe if I sleep,

This will all go away

and I’ll pray…

it never comes another day. 

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My Dearest Young One

My dearest young one,

I see your struggle

to see your worth.

I see your struggle

to find your voice.

I see your struggle 

to find your strength.

I see your struggle

to find good friends.

I see your struggle

to remember.

I see your struggle

to learn.

I see your struggle

against medication.

I see you falling

into darkness.

I see you crying.

I see you praying.

I know your struggle.

I know your every pain.

I know them, oh so well.

I know things look bleak and dim.

I know you’re tempted to give in.

My dear young one,

listen close…

these times will pass, this I promise. 

You will find your joy.

You will find good friends.

You will find your voice.

These struggles will pass.

It may seem like forever,

but this too shall pass. 

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Tidal Wave

It rises like a tidal wave

an unstoppable force…

full of destructive power

this emotion

emotion, that paralyzes logical thought

emotion, that stops rational thought in its tracks

and it plays you like a marionette,

with strings that just won’t shake loose. 

The dos and don’ts, 

The rules of etiquette,

The clarity of right and wrong are tossed from sight.

So that emotion…

becomes the sole engine, you are running on.

It plays you like a fiddle.

It doesn’t care that its actions might hurt you.

It doesn’t care that its actions might hurt someone else.

It felt threatened,

and took over like a tidal wave

and when it passes,

destruction is left in its wake.

The anxiety is like a hard stone in your chest,

that just won’t go away, 

because you can’t stop regretting your mistakes, from just an hour before.

Why oh why 

didn’t you just take a breath.

You desperately try and clean the aftermath.

You regret every word. 

Every moronic action,

when that furious tidal wave of emotion took over.

Soon it passes…

things calm,

the mess cleared away.

You walk away wiser.

And you pray that you don’t let that tidal wave

wash through on, another day.

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